I used to think that I was a humble person. I know, I know, even thinking that probably makes me not humble. I have spent extra time researching humility this week, obviously something I must have needed. I feel so grateful to be able to reflect on humility, especially this week! It is such an appropriate topic with all that is going on in the world right now. President Nelson invited us all to fast on Good Friday this past week. As I was fasting, especially with this topic on my mind, I couldn't help but think that fasting is the ultimate expression of humility. Here is one definition I found for humility:
…to recognize gratefully our dependence on the Lord—to understand that we have constant need for His support.
(I Am Enough Print by, Kate Lee) @kate_lee_art
Wow! That is a powerful statement! The invitation to fast was to everyone regardless of religion, race, or belief. As a world that has gone so far away from the standards our Heavenly Father has set for us, many humbled themselves and recognized our dependence on God and the need for His support. So many of us realize that this pandemic has changed our way of life and are more aware of the need for divine help. Elder Holland put it best in this last conference when he said, "Covid 19, a solemn reminder that a virus 1,000 times smaller than a grain of sand can bring entire populations and global economies to their knees." Humility is not a sign of weakness, it is an indication that we know where our strength lies. In such crazy and uncertain times we have all had to turn to the Lord and recognize more fully our dependence on him! I learned this personally during our recent general conference. For the past year or so I have felt as though I had lost myself. I was comparing myself to so many people. I thought I needed to be smarter, funnier, thinner, serve more, have a cleaner home, have a more modern home, be a better cook, be more like other moms and so many other things. The same feelings I think some of you might have? Some friendships of mine had changed and everything just seemed not right. I was following the crowd and I had never really been that person. I knew to which source I could look for comfort and to whom I needed to turn, my Savior! I made an effort to pray about my specific situation. I prayed many nights. I started getting really discouraged because I wasn't getting any answers. I actually started feeling frustrated with Heavenly Father. I was doing so much! I was fulfilling my calling as YW President, I was serving neighbors and friends, helping my older mom, helping others with financial struggles, the list seemed to go on and on. Didn't I deserve to get an answer to this prayer?! I know Heavenly Father loves me and that He answers prayer, but why not this one? It was a righteous desire! It consumed a lot of my thoughts when I had so many other better places my thoughts could be!
As I sat and listened to general conference with a prayer in my heart, I got the answer that I needed. It wasn't the answer I thought I would receive (e.g., here is the solution to your problem, here is who you are and how to find yourself). My answer was actually a quiet, loving humbling from my Heavenly Father. I felt as I listened to many of the talks that I personally needed to increase my spiritual capacity! I was doing a lot but not everything I needed to be doing! I needed to show more commitment, follow promptings and learn how to listen more closely to the spirit. The better I listen, the more I will receive revelation! I needed to use the atonement for forgiveness and to know and understand my worth! I never thought this would be my answer but, I also know that we can't ask our Heavenly Father for something and then expect answers if we haven't put in the effort. My Father in Heaven knows me personally. He knew where I needed to grow. This will be different for everybody. Don't be discouraged thinking you need to do more when you are already at capacity. Heavenly Father knows and loves each of us! He knew the answer that I needed! I plead with you, PLEASE know that you are loved! PLEASE know that you are enough! If you don't know that, make the time to find that out for yourself. I lost knowing that for a while, but I am finding my way back there. I know that I lost myself and sight of my worth because of Satan. He convinced me that everybody was better than I! That is NOT TRUE! As we humble ourselves and rely on our Heavenly Father we will come to know and always remember the worth that we have!
“Remember the worth of souls is great in the sight of God; D&C 18:10
Article Written by Cami Starks
Cami Stark is first a mother to her 5 amazing children and also a strong leader in our community. As a local entrepreneur and phiolotraphist, she has helped countless others achieve the best selves.
A long time mentor to our local youth, Cami has spoken to hundreds throughout the intermountain west delivering a message of hope and overcoming adversity.
After she became a widow at the age of 22 when her husband was killed in the line of duty defending our freedoms, Cami learned how to overcome adversity herself as she faced the world alone, with just her two small children.
Cami is a champion for all and believes in the power of truth and honesty, and always being true to your self.